One step closer to being in control/

Apologies for such a while between posts but it has been a particularly testing week, ranging from rock bottom to sublime happiness.

This time last week I was sitting in front of my PC with tears in my eyes feeling like I was back at square one. I had started to return to some of my self destructive habits - comfort eating and sitting on my butt.

So what have I learnt from this? I have learnt that I am only human and yes, the road I tread will not always be a perfect one and that I cant punish myself for this but that I should pick myself up, dust myself down and keep going.

So that was the 'rock bottom'! How about the 'sublime happiness'?

Well, in fact there was more than one moment of this over the week.
The first came on Tuesday when I realised that for the first time in months I had had more than one day where I could honestly say that I had complete control over what I was eating and it felt empowering.

The second moment came just yesterday when I was on the treadmill and I reached what is known as 'the zone'. I have only ever experienced this once and for those who have not come across this term it is a state where mind/body are one and you feel like you can run forever and almost like it is no effort at all. Im finding it hard to describe this adequately but believe me, you will know if you find it : )
Also, I ran 5km in 30 mins with no walking breaks...I was dead chuffed (then straight into a weights circuit)...im hurting today but its a 'good' pain.

I have just started ramping up the training again as I have just got a gig to play Principal Cornet with Desford Band at the Masters in the UK near the end of May, hence I want to be in good physical form (as well as playing). The fitter I am in body the fitter I am in mind.

Thanks once again to Steve Ford for the encouragement and for reminding me of some of the reasons for writing this blog. Keep the comments coming guys, they help me so much on this sometimes lonely path.

Paula